She was a beautiful disaster
But a memory of distate
Left her unable to fathom
If she could reason with reality
She was a beautiful disaster
And she made up all her stories
Based on real life characters
That left her with a void
Oh you beautiful disaster
You make such a pretty mess
Let me see your pretty mouth work
Let me take away your stress
Such a beautiful disaster
She's a body with a mind
It's not enough to run away after
I want to see you try
She's a beautiful disaster
And all she does is cry
No, all she does is walk but really
She tries so hard to fly
She's a beautiful disaster
Smoke pouring from her lips
Wine sweet on her tongue
Wandering fingertips
She's a beautiful disaster
With a squint and a smirk
She rolls her eyes and shakes her head
And makes sarcastic remarks
God, beautiful disaster
So small and insecure
So ready just to disappear
Convinced she doesn't matter
Not so beautiful, definitely a disaster
I seek the comfort in the words
The beat of mine with a message
The silence is over
Disastrous beauty
Monstrous perfection
If I choose one over the other
I'm lying in my arrogance
I don't really think I'm beautiful
I just say what I am told
I keep playing all the wrong roles
I really have to go
