Be pleased of your conquest, your spreading seeds
And be appeased in your progress in getting rid of me
I didn't need you, repeat and then it will be
I grieve your companionship, because I
Believed I could handle it, but I was
Too weak to withstand the facts
But that's not what we planned to happen
Goddess, get me on the same page
I'm just wasting away
I'm a waste of your space
But you let me invade
And I gave you the same
Try to relate but appraisal was latent
You let me believe I was closer
I couldn't conceive what you wanted
There's nothing left for us, we know
Love isn't logical
You're under your own control
You're the one who should've spoke
With your skewed notion of preferred roles
Our words are at odds with the actions in tow
I'm so tired of being the one to fill the empty room
An unempathetic audience, I talk to the walls
You fucked yourself royally, and so did I
A promise is nothing when shrouded in lies
Now Stop.
Breathe.
Remember me?
I used to See.
I looked past negativity
I used to talk rhythmically
In metaphor and cyclically
I still generalize everything
But you always know what I mean
Fuck man we just forgot to speak
And I called for you but you stopped listening
I know you didn't want to watch me suffer
I know this shit goes deeper
I'm not the only one with a weakness
But I'll scratch it til it bleeds
I fragment in hopes you relate
You the reader, whoever you may be
I'm giving you ways to derive meaning
But I'm doing this for me
I might never make him see
But I'm hopeful and naive
I'd be honored, now in all honesty
To be criticized in an arrogant rage
As if I didn't criticize you all the same
As if blatant deflection helped your case
But I'm irrelevant now
Less than nothing, like you said of her
And you assume I'm just a toy
At least I don't betray myself
By getting caught in my own web of lies
Still, I can't ignore
The feelings I harbor
And you can ignore me and make me feel awful
But you're going to choke on your double standards
My feelings aren't useless
I'm not over you and
I'm hopelessly coping but not getting through yet
But this isn't about how you hurt me
This is about me processing
And finding out how to finally get free
How to be happy
I want to rise above
Find eminating love
Remember comfort from a touch
Cuz you kinda fucked that up
But
I hope you find what you're missing
Hope you get on your grind and succeed
Honestly
I hope you're finally learning
What I couldn't seem to teach
