Stormy

I'm not telling you how to feel
I've got better investments
If you don't wanna rock the boat

If I hold your attention
Cast my spell on ya
I'm wasting my time with the energies spent
If we're sinking, I'm jumping ship

Oh my captain, he goes
Down with the Vessel
Just remember, I'm a swimmer
And I'd go down go down go down with you

I've never taken abuse when I face it
But strong man has gotta pull everyone's weight
Can't just be selfish, but Self is my game
Mistakes on my lips wanna back off too late

I ran and he didn't come after me
Thinks he can wait it out patiently
Sorry, there's so much more that I need
I don't come back where there's nothing for me

The storm will blow over
Or that's what I'm told
But I've been keeping my clouds low, low, low
It's a hazy excuse to get into a mode
Have some fucking self control

Smoke is rising, rising
We're capsizing, riding
The waves of desire
I'm fanning the fires
Won't respond to the obvious lie

So captain, your choice
I can't save you from your vices
I can only hold myself but I'm
Sinking, sinking, sinking

Manipulation has a voice
And it deflects into the void
And I just get so fucking tired
Of the same thing, same pain, again

Vessel running on lies and hiding from the self
Breaking down solutions before they can help
Can't make repairs fast enough

Devil on my shoulder tells me fight for love
Angels saying just give it up
It's not mine to fuck with, not mine
So rise above, rise above

I'm at the shore, hailing your sails
Solid ground never felt so good
Maybe I'll take off before you land
The bird takes to the air

I'd tell you what I want if it'd change a thing
Come after me, come after me, come after me
Gave you a broken heart that no one can fix but me
Please
Come after me, come after me, come after me

I'll never make you choose, let you make your own decisions
I'd never weaponize my own fucking dereliction
I've got to spend the time getting rid of my addictions
And I can only hope you'd do the same, but make no promises

Please please please please
I can stand on my own two feet
I can't expect you to come for me
But hope is always holding

A rope burning my hands
It's secured around your neck
It's too much for me to handle
And you've dulled down all the blades

I can't cut you down
You've tied all your own knots
I wish my sharp tongue was enough
But I can't tell if you want...

Love is a sacred bond
But it's easy to shatter an open heart
The vessel filled with broken parts
We'd rather just discard

The problems won't stop if they're ignored
I'd rather focus on my own
Distract with love and let it come
Wish I could cast off your doubts

If I told you what I want
There would be another storm
But the honest answer is
At the risk of sounding selfish

I want you for my own

But that's why I need to let you go.

It begins again

Manifesto of an energy high spiraling on the waves of wind
Current occurrences come in cycles and I see the outcome as soon as it begins
I knew from the moment I saw you that you'd sweep me up in gusts of lust
I knew if I was patient that I could get anything I want
It's only a matter of time before you realize the way things have to be
I get distracted, record scratches and I'm drifting off along my feet
Free time is me time and I reason with the drifting leaves
But you cross my mind a thousand times and the circles continues to whirl around me

I miss you.
I miss a lot.
I miss myself.
I really miss Josh

I'm getting over myself when I've got time to talk
Time to be alone and clear my mind on a walk

I gotta clean up my space and take a break
Pull myself back from lethargy and the need to negate
Myself as a presence, you make me feel great
But I get brought down because I overthink

Slow down. Take time.
Muscle it in. Massage your mind.
Breathe with the wind. Breathe into waves.
Breath is a gift. Learn, give and take.

Fix this insignificant need
To take all my problems to heart, let it bleed
Drip down to the dust, insecurities
Return to the earth to recycle and clean

Fucking Frustrated

Again with the cyclical ramble poem
Like nothing you say means the cycle is broken
I get caught in the same fucking random tokens
When I'm better off staying with no one

You're not what I want, I'll admit that at once
There is something much greater to move me along
A rumbling crater in the midst of the fog
And I trip to the void, unavoided, the fall

Darling I miss you with years at the helm
Wandering silently through other realms
Awakening quietly holding your head
Protecting your ego from dreams of the dead

Physically, I'm oh so lonely
Try to get high but the herb isn't helping
Try to get drunk, my resolve isn't melting
Try finding another but no love is developing

Not that I'm really trying that hard
In finding someone who's worth binding my heart
It always was you and you only my darling
So that's why I'm feeling so off

This or that, does it really matter?
After you've shown me all you have to have?
I am still going insane from the last
Couple years that I'll never get back

I always want to obtain as a lesson
A secret, a cover to claim your intention
Fuck love is so fickle, but seems an obsession
It only gets as far as you let it

Pretentious. Fixation.
Miss me with that gay shit.

Scintillation from the Winter

Artistic binge hinging on the fringe of a clinical Christmas list
Instantly conflicted by distance
Originality inflicted existence, fix this, it persists on my insistence
Take a walk in the snow and let it blow without resistance
Chewing on ice while it registers with broken glass,
You represent the past and it wasn't part of the plan
I designate a designer drug, mood tropics off topic.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but not without contempt for the truth;
The problem is you abused my muse to infuse the recluse,
and hammered out mobility when we settled for comfortability
I wish I could call it out.
A lonely cloud.
Surface drifting.

I feel another rush surging on
Don't make it up, just let it come.
Shards of glass to cut my teeth
Nightmares and remedies
Stick together, find your crew
Let them get a hold of you
Figure it out, you're on your own kid
Resourceful, neither too boring nor daunting

I made it up as I go
Still don't have a home, though.

Beautiful Disaster pt 2

She was a beautiful disaster
But a memory of distate
Left her unable to fathom
If she could reason with reality

She was a beautiful disaster
And she made up all her stories
Based on real life characters
That left her with a void

Oh you beautiful disaster
You make such a pretty mess
Let me see your pretty mouth work
Let me take away your stress

Such a beautiful disaster
She's a body with a mind
It's not enough to run away after
I want to see you try

She's a beautiful disaster
And all she does is cry
No, all she does is walk but really
She tries so hard to fly

She's a beautiful disaster
Smoke pouring from her lips
Wine sweet on her tongue
Wandering fingertips

She's a beautiful disaster
With a squint and a smirk
She rolls her eyes and shakes her head
And makes sarcastic remarks

God, beautiful disaster
So small and insecure
So ready just to disappear
Convinced she doesn't matter

Not so beautiful, definitely a disaster
I seek the comfort in the words
The beat of mine with a message
The silence is over

Disastrous beauty
Monstrous perfection
If I choose one over the other
I'm lying in my arrogance

I don't really think I'm beautiful
I just say what I am told

I keep playing all the wrong roles
I really have to go

About Dogs and Men

Yeah, hi, I like your face
I think it's cute how you wag your tail
I wanna pet you but you look kinda dangerous
I'm not looking for anything but affection

I get riled up and excited too
Sometimes I want to bite and chew
I'll snap at your hand with an attitude
But I just reflect your mood

So easy to train but I decline
I'm not trying to keep you for mine
I like animals to be wild
I like sensations high

I'm no alpha, I'm an observer
I'm a loner and a lurker
Cat that wanders through the world
And dogs have got me spooked

Something so pure from something so feral
Man's best companion and favorite creature
Man's an extension of animal features
Man is a dog when it comes to his nature

I just accept you and I wanna pet you
Dogs are just loyal to the person they rescued
Dogs are adorable and lovable too
But sometimes aggression leaves bruises

Can't blame a dog for just being a dog
Can't blame a cat for acting nonchalant
Cats overreact then backtrack to play it off
Dogs just never know when they did something wrong

I got a dog that never paid attention
Something was wrong, some kind of a deficit
We got along we just never connected
But I didn't want to get rid of him

Well there are plenty of dogs in the world
They're beautiful, lovable and mine for a moment
I'm happy to stay here and play for a bit
To throw you a bone and let you go fetch

I'm not afraid of big dogs
I love them from their nose to paws
But honestly I'm kinda small
And get knocked down a lot

In all honesty the real comparison
I wanna make with dogs and men
Is just a case of loyalty
And knowing what it means

Deeper please

Criminal infringement, secretly intrepid
Set on a monument for deviating moments
Sly in conversation, slipped in animation
Tripping over words that run through paths we haven't taken
Figurative in nature; naturally tantalizing
Something you can't reach for, but always find in striving
Enrichment or detriment? Or have you become complacent?
In a word, rigid. For you to gamble your own placement
Explicitly stimulating; caught in a simulation
Sex is a mess of sense without satiation
Recommended settings; sarcastic for defense
And don't forget to be a monument to the regretful second guess
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This character's unplayable, more resources are needed
Freezing in a storm called anxiety
What drives me is optimistic naivete
Why I stumble through brevity
For half formed thoughts in the calling of poetry
Sit still, if you listen you will feel
It pulsating through your entire being
Allow me to be what you need
I'm here whenever you want me

Hey, Let's Figure This Out! [long, probably don't read]

It seems to me that everybody-
Wait, let's take it back now baby
Casual with the usual hold
Underneath lackin' control

I don't have my shit together
I'm not looking for a path
I'm not heading out tonight
You won't find out if I'm coming back

I'm sorry, baby
I care too much about other things
I care too much about myself
I care about you but I have trouble focusing

Self absorbed
Yeah, you weren't ready to believe
You were never ready for it
All your thoughts were preconceived

Me. I'm a loner
I'm a predator
I get close but
You'll regret it, huh?

Stop. Stop overthinking it.
Just let it go.
It was just years wasted and a
Wandering eye taking control

You got this.
I have unlimited faith.
I'm always going to believe
I have got what it takes

I'm not trying to be a nuisance but
I am processing all the mistakes I've made
Keep me separate from my feelings and
Shut my body down because I always take

And take and take and take

Picture this;
Snow falls softly, sound is muffled
I alone am the only; I am myself
Without you, my love, I have trust
Fact is, my analyzation skills needed work and
Now I don't lose concentration nearly as much

Words of wisdom, listen to your friends
But your friends have investments of their own
I just want to share myself with
People that I can adore and won't
Take advantage of the fact I get attached and
Please understand that I am flesh and bone and tact
I, I get sorrowful but always try to smile, there's
Nothing wrong with me I just forgot to interact

Sorry, I think with my body.

Sorry, I wanna listen to you talk and take in every nuance of your speech.

Sorry, I fixate as soon as I forget and forget and fixate and fixate and forget.

Every detail to me is an element of fascination.
Every thought is as bright as as the day
And my eyes weren't meant for that kind of creation
My hands are meant to be wandering

Damn. I have me all to myself.
How nice does that feel?
I'm so pretty when I talk like that.
My personality is so genuinely real

I sometimes try to fuck with your mind
My friends are not a culture I'm in
My friends are merely placeholders for
The entity I am within

Who are you? Do you know?
If I think I do, it just goes to show
How petty I am, how shallow
Surface oriented, try comatose

Try zombified, try sick of crying
So I bury myself on this side of silence
I bury myself in the threat of residing
On opposite sides of the reason I'm dying

Nah, don't think about it.
Nah, just get over it.
Stop overthinking
Who's overthinking?
Who's the one cheating?

Nah, I've given up on the relationship game
So just give it to me straight
I'm not that type of person
 Just wanna make it worth it.

I'll interpret. So my life is just that.
I'm trying to take my body back
I'm trying to make up for things I lack
By letting it go, for a moment at last

Oh, darling pick me
I only want to please
I can only take so much of this teasing

Yeah, I go too fast
I'm not sorry for
any way I act

I'm giddy
Maybe I don't need more to drink
Maybe I should actually try to think
But the wine is so sweet

I don't really drink too often
I keep hoping my resolve won't soften
But sometimes I just get to talking
And my mouth gets way too comfortable. Sorry.

I relive the imagery as if it was a part of me.

But

Fuck.
I've just gotta give it up.

To Us.

No one cares for your
Fucking dramatic
Cynical antics
It's clear that our reality is crashing

Who am I to say
That things will be fine
When I'm still suffering
I'm sick in the mind

I can't fucking think
I can't breathe
I miss you and it's hard to speak
I'm fucking sick of crying

Who are you to tell me
I ruined your life
Without ever fucking explaining it to me
Why

I'm sick of sitting around with no purpose
I'm sick of hidden motives
I'm sick of hating the place where I live

I'm sick of waiting on a response
That I'm never gonna get

If you don't care, then I don't care
You do. I do.
So why then can we never share
The real reasons behind the feud

We couldn't talk about it because
Sex is so taboo
Even when we want so bad
Just to be included

So now I'm filled with hate and spite,
Impossible repose
And I'm so tired.
So tired.
I wonder if it shows.
I wonder if you know.
I didn't want to go.

No comparison.
No judgement.
You both are
What I want

I feel more alone than ever.
What was I before?
Someone with preventative measure
But I got my hands caught in the door.

God damn my sight and my sense.
God damn the lies in your head.
I'm fucking sick of knowing the outcome before it happens.
I'm sick of hoping I'm wrong about it.

Fuck, because I make bad decisions.
I do it all myself, I know.
But how could it have been so bad
You really felt like home.

You felt like home.

But I was alone.
Just goes to show, can't trust no one.

Just goes to show they always leave
At least I always have me
I wish that I could get free
Like I always seemed to be.

Why should I try to speak up when
I'm handing you the moments

You say we all have reigns
So why did you not take them?

And while I was busy speaking up
I misinterpreted your thoughts

But you would let me think that way
If only you were getting something

And I could have whatever I want
A monument to holding on

But I'm a monument to holding back
While shrouded in the things I lack.

Simple as the story goes
We reap whatever we sow.

Another Random Exchange

[Happens all the time]

Just the brush of a breath past your lips
Or the touch and the tap of your keyboard fingering
Tempted as I am, to say but a word
The mood in the room a hollow "do not disturb"
Think to myself solemnly, aperture a blur
Can't ask what's on my mind, don't even bother
This material wealth, inadvertent skill in deterrence
No longer in perspective, no longer concurrent
Live in this world, every vice a device [and vice versa]

Puzzled manipulator, the impertinent puppeteer
Scorn in every sigh, knuckles white, bitten by
Insanity and fragmenting in fear
Don't stop, too late. Don't go, be safe.
I wish you well on your end, tied hands but now the signs
are too burnt up to read.

Tagging in symbolism, stripped to the bone of meaning
by perfectionist pillaging,
Opening wounds of a new world order
Simply older than eroded modes of note, in hopes
That happiness can be contained in cans
And handed back for the low, low price of $9.99!

Ridiculous, isn't it, that innocence only exists in
Fantastical fantasy or perverted fancy
All the while fetishized by a systematic version of cancer.

Disappointed, aren't you, when it all wears off and you bear
The scoffing of the critics in the alleys of your thoughts.
Scourge to your sorrow.

It doesn't mean I'm the end all be all of existence, just MY existence
I'm not about to cry anymore. I'm going to get over it.

Self Actualization

Okay Empath...

The energy high spirals from my heart
And the game begins as I end
My end comes in the form of your thoughts
My thoughts are at your hand

Okay Empath

Your dreams are reeling
Or are they my own?
I feel your feelings
Even when I'm alone

Your fit of friendliness has lost itself in me
Your sadness is my depression
So I lose myself in the melancholy
Wishing that you would express it

Okay Empath

I feel you from across this void
Trying so hard to put the thought away
I'm only wishing I could hide
Your thoughts are sticking to my brain

Loneliness of the harbored mind
I wonder if I know who you are
I know that with your thoughts you bind
My essence to your lonely heart

Okay Empath

For the truth must come one way or another
I'm isolated yet still you should know
How always I am forced to wonder
When you will be ready to let me go

Come to me, I am ready
This is no loss, I ask for closure
And all the while you are letting
Me wander and wonder when this will be over

Okay Empath

This is not pain, this is discomfort
A block of feelings and which is mine?
Above the clouds I'm settled under
The rain reasons with the tears I cry

Okay Empath

You're a monument to empty eyes
And shadowed nature in a lie
I'm a monument to speaking out
When nothing else can ease my doubt

So I fill my heart with reason and love
Okay Empath, your work here is done.

Spell of Gratitude to the Elements

Moon to my mind, in body I bind
Sun to the spell, of holiest rhyme
Fire to the hearth, to beckon in time
Light to the dark, for reason to shine

Water to flow, in motion with soul
Rain to the earth, return to your home
Child at the breast, who someday will grow
Return to the river, by will of your own

Blood of the earth, respected in strength
Man made of dirt, to give and to take
Rooted in balance, your wisdom relayed
Stone, strong and solid, in power of faith

By air and by breeze, in quickness I think
Lightly I walk, by your touch may I feel
By circle and spin, in flight may I heal
To the sky I will look, and always believe

Come to me now, my being of power
I am thankful and faithful in gifts been endowed
In reason and love, myself I allow
Knowledge and strength, here I give you my vow

Thank you, Spirit.

Love Poem/Spell

Calm my ever restless bones
Fill my ever anxious mind
Build me as a house of stone
In which true knowledge can reside
Soothe my ever shaking legs
Still my ever roaming eyes
Bid my sorrows go to rest
Silence that which whispers lies
Hold my ever aching form
Lulled to sleep in morning's fire
Hold my heart in true love borne
Surely as the sun will rise

More ramble

Anticipatory static. This means nothing. I wait in expectation.
I revel in relation.
I say what should not be said. Betraying honorary friend.
I'm not meant for this, don't keep me in a box.
Sometimes I let the words come
And sometimes my mouth is plastered shut
I don't know what I feel or what I want.
I want it all, all or nothing.
Remember when those expectations shattered?
Like an open heart actually mattered
Like the cold in the world could be melted after
Frozen heart and sardonic laughter
Everything happens behind my back
How does it feel when it's turned around at last?

I hurt you in my thoughts. Wonder if we're better off...
Alone. You're working and I'm nothing. I'm bored and I'm dramatic.
I'm a touch of flesh eating disease.
I'm where sanity starts to recede.
I'm still wondering what we needed
Or whether it was right to deny you your freedom.

Sorry if I lead you on, I just don't think I've done anything wrong.

Metal playground, rusted over
Flaking in my hands, falling under

Don't think, just do. Don't wait, push through.

It doesn't seem that serious
Just ignore it, how can I focus?
Trip switch, from good to bad in a second
I think so much I become exhausted
Just give up. It isn't worth it.

Useless cycle, cheated, cheated on
It goes where you take it, that's for sure
This is all my own issue
And boredom is a travesty.
I think too hard, then I can't think
And every thought that starts to creep
Gets blotted out, suppressing deed
And ruined in the stain of sleep
Cuz I can't run away from dreams
What's in my head, I can't relieve
Discomfort and anxiety

Frequent flyer miles on a trip I can't get off
Give me a prize before I become despondent
Give me something to think about before I forget how to
Give me something fresh and new
I think about eyes and the windows to souls
I think about growing old alone
You think about happiness as something that can be done
I think the present is already gone.
And I, alone
Am moving on.

Another ramble poem

This is the story of the day when the windows broke
Combustible bonds reminiscent of the fires you stoked
When wrong and hope came up unchoked
The force of it blew us back into the fold

Forgetting the difference of whatever severance wrenched us apart in the semblance of our status,
I would rather have worried that the quarries between us weren't as bad as I could make them up to be.
Forgetting the frenzy of anxiety that tested me, molested by the thought of her lips on your cock or your love in her palms.

Forget the fact that these feral impulses and primal instincts were that of the watchful love that held your illusion of monogamy together through threading the threats
Of judgement.
Fair treatment.
Respect and respectability, following generations of unnamed exasperation and hidden agenda.
In a word, manipulation, because whatever you did to her, you did to me.
A less than nothing feeling.
Forget about a sense of self worth.
Do nothing but remember the currents, like the fish and the bird.
Analyze, interpret.
Why invalidate an answer when you only get the sample,
they design it to go as far as you can take  
And when the answer is a web of lies,
they see decline through lying eyes

But I'm a child of much simpler times
I roll along with sarcastic eyes
And I'm sorry that it took all this to find solace
in the thought that I was guided by the rising tides.

But I'm a monument to weathered shrines
And you're the reason all the fires died.
So don't tell me you were really mine
When you can't see straight through your lies.

Actual Shade

Sorry if it’s problematic

Casual with the usual antics

                                            You

Don’t trip on me honey, I’m not anything, I’m irrelevant, you’re the main event

No I’m not here to judge boy, but I’m here to show you the judge, you gotta self reflect

You gotta watch your act, I say this to myself, but you tell me a different story.

For all the time we’ve been together, we were never, ever, on the same level.

Sorry I couldn’t get past the fact that you lied and lied and lied

Sorry sex is a tactic to keep your hands over your lovers’ eyes

Sorry I’m too honest so I called you on your constant

Manipulative deflection, sparking gaslit fires of nonsense

If confusion was abuse hey man I’d be filing those charges

But since love’s the only sentence needed I’m planning my departure

I’ve served your time and mine my dear so I’ll be on my way

Because the killer in me killed an ego freak

And my soul needed tending as well as my body.

I was never for you I was never for you I know I was never for you

But I was so moved by you, you’re right, weakness it is

I’m weak and I fell and it ruined a friendship

I gave in to the sex and I pitied my autonomy

Like giving myself to you would fill another part of me

But huh, look at that, surprise! It didn’t

It sucked me away in the darkness you’d hidden

It found me in darkness I put around myself

I’m a product of my environment.

So me, I can fix it by going outside.

I hope that light is something you can find.

Or at least I hope you learn to see in the dark.

                  Me

Wake up, little light!

No more sorrow, it’s time to fight!

No more worry, whether wont or not

No more fear, with all you’ve got!

Break free child, the air is callin’

Storm’s a’brewin’, rain is fallin’

No more tears, dry those eyes

Surely as the sun will rise

Surely as another day

Light will come and dark will fade

Be free, my love

Open as the morning sky

Ridden on the breath of day

Surely as the Sun will rise

I’m still a monument to weathered shrines

Enabled in the higher mind

But also I’m a monument

To not knowing where you’re going yet.

[Emma]

I’m sorry I said what I said to you

Jealousy’s a memory that gets me confused

I understand enjoying your company

And I guess I just got left a little too lonely

I guess you win, if that’s what you wanted

I guess I should’ve guessed it all along?

It’s funny because I think we both got played

But girl you do you, we’re all just playing the game

I still think you’re cool but I’m calling in crazy

We fuck it all up and don’t mean to cause heartache

I was a little easier to control, so you got put to the side

I’m sorry I gave in to something I wanted to defy

It’s okay I guess, I’m still irrelevant

I still think too much to get anything done

I still wish you well, I wish for him too

Just sucks when all I wanted was to be included

Guess love isn’t a factor when you’re captured by a delusion.

Beautiful Disaster

She was a beautiful disaster
And she wondered if anyone noticed
How nervous she was feeling
Or the way her hair fell over her face
Because she always wanted to hide

She was a beautiful disaster
So she apologized
For every spilled word
And every uninvited touch
She thought to herself that no one could feel her there

She was a beautiful disaster
And she felt everything
And it hurt her to know
That she would still feel empty
At the end of the day

She was a beautiful disaster
And she wondered if anybody cared
About the way she moved to the music
Or how beautiful her words were
When they weren't stumbling over themselves

She was a beautiful disaster
With no sense of herself
And she blamed herself
For everything that when wrong
When she was around

She was a beautiful disaster
And she wondered if anyone noticed
When she was gone
But she couldn't stop herself
From disappearing

She was a beautiful disaster
But when she was alone
She didn't feel so beautiful
And she didn't believe anyone would notice
When she left for the last time.

When I Was

There was something there and I
Can't put to words or even try
The way it made me feel was something special
Something that I couldn't hold
A feeling that seemed very old
Something that could purge my very essence

There was something there and if
You'd felt it you would soon notice
That life's a little better than we make it
And every time I'm thinking back
To days when things seemed so on track
I lose the shame of seeing my soul naked

These days I am so withdrawn
With no one here to keep me calm
And nothing to keep me from feeling anxious
I couldn't say how much I missed
The helping hands from the abyss
The open sky above the trees so spacious

Today I finally figured out
There's no escape from my self doubt
Except to just accept the way I am
And even if I get so down
I cannot bring myself around
I know those helping hands will let me stand

I don't need to apologize
For flaws I see with my own eyes
There's no one else that sees me like I do
And if I can accept myself
Learn to accept a little help
Then I can finally start to see the truth

The truth is that there is no end
And darkness isn't foe, but Friend
And we are all connected to each other
There's happiness we can obtain
We have to keep each other sane
I will try to let my heart discover

How to feel again.

Blasphemous

They walk the earth in the guise of kings
Adorn themselves with shiny things
And smile as though they're greater beings
Above the ones who make their living

They've lost the essence of their souls
The ones they conceived to make them feel whole
These creatures forget our gifts have been given
They only have eyes to search for heaven

They lose themselves in the comfort of lies
And drown themselves in pursuit of the highest
Their tongues are loose and scrape their teeth
With the task of making me believe

They sell themselves when money burns
But find no substance in their own words
They hide and lock themselves within
These creatures seeking their own end

Heartbreak

Somewhere lost forgotten
Set amidst my silent screams
I offered you a piece of me
That no one else could see
I gave it to you as a gift
You loved it, so it seemed
And for it I asked nothing
Only that you keep it clean
You put that little piece
In a corner on a shelf
You saw it there, from time to time
So lonely by itself
But as time went, collecting dust
That piece began to crack and fade
I must have known, I felt it die
Those memories just slipped away
A dying light I can't get back
That puzzle's missing parts
You said that you would keep it clean
That small piece of my heart
When I asked it, bared my soul
You knew that there was little left
I offered you a piece of me...
...
So why did you accept?